Remembering the Love Story that I Have Crafted in My Mind

A long time ago, I wrote a love story in my head. I pictured a girl and a boy. Well, of course, the girl was me and the boy was the boy I was hoping to be with someday. I wrote a story that’s quite unique and in a way somewhat traditional.

It was about two friends falling for each other. Friends who have known each other for a short time and yet deep in their hearts they both feel that they knew each other for a lifetime. It’s about friends who didn’t want, didn’t expect that they would fall but in the end, they both did.

You (Shean Roxanne Chiva) said, it’s not about making your own love story. You said, it is God who does to two whole individuals fit to be one.

And that was what I did. I prayed for God to make me a love story, the love story that I wanted to have. I wanted the love story that I have written in my head. I wanted the story that I have authored.

And now, years passed, time ticked away. I look back into that time when I was praying for a love story. I always smile when I remember that day. Today, you put a smile into my lips. I remember the time. I remember the moment.

When I get back home this Friday, I would kiss my husband and my son. And thank God for answering my prayer, for giving me the love story, just the way I crafted it in my mind.

this day... Our first year...

Ours is not an extraordinary love story, nor is it typical. But, as i've always say, it is a story worth telling.

"It started over coffee, we started out as friends. It's funny how from simple things, the best things begin"

Looking back, i cant help but smile. Over a cup of coffee, i had known the person that you are. The man that you've become. And then I just realized that you have already ensnared my heart.

this day, a year ago. I have given up my father's surname and have accepted yours to be mine for the rest of my life. the "enye" thats so difficult to find in the keyboard, i don't mind. :)

this day, a year ago is the turning point of my life.
this day, a year ago i vowed to be your wife.
this day, a year ago is my happiest ever.
because this day, a year ago we started our lives together.

I love you daddy Teody Leano. Happy anniversary.

Just passing by... It's been quite a while

It's been a while. I have been idle here. Well, specifically because I'm happy with my life.

Before, when I can't explain what I feel, when I'm down or drowned in sorrow, I resort to writing. It is my scapegoat to get out of my madness. Now, i can't put my feelings into words because everywhere, I see beds of roses. I don't say that it's perfect. But I am satisfied.

Got to go.... I pray that all of you also find the happiness and peace that I have in my heart.
The bliss and contentment. The love and perfection in my own understanding of the word.

New Life

Indeed, how time passes so fast. Just yesterday, i turned 29 and all of a sudden i realized how old I was. Seems it was only yesterday that I had my medallion imposed on me for being the top student in 2nd Grade.

Now, I am a wife and a mother. A devout wife to her husband and an adoring mom to our little angel, Mateo.

Having a glance at the past, I can say that my life was adventuresome, "tear-some", fun. In short, I can say that it is well-spent.  There are lessons learned, hearts touched, friends made with, and special people met along the way.

Now at 29, I can say that the most precious things that ever came my way is having received such blessing of a fun-to-be-with-whom-im-so-in-love and loving husband and a baby boy who looks so much like his daddy.

Thank you Lord for the gift.

Photography - My Passion or so I Said 2

Let me post more of my previous hobby.

This is a photo of yen2x, my officemate's daughter. She was still little when I took this photo (around 3-4) maybe. Now, she's already in 1st-2nd grade. How time really passes so fast.

year taken: 2006

This is a candid post. She had no idea that she was being photographed. In fact, I was around, 15 to 20 meters away from here when this shot was taken.

I can still remember that time when I took this photo. It was our coop's (SEMPCO) general assembly and I was kinda "not" listening to the speaker. I got bored and what I did to erase the boredom that I felt was, take photos of those around me. People, plants, whatever that captured my attention.

I was also mastering protrait photography because this is my most difficult area of photography. i find it difficult taking photos of people. I dont want a posed/rehearsed shot, it doesn't appeal to me. What I want when it comes to people/portrait photography is candid and unrehearsed so that I could capture people's thoughts, real expressions and true feelings - the real them when nobody is watching.


Going back to yen2, though I still remember the time and place where I took this photo, I can't really remember this moment or what she was doing that time, thus having such expressions in her eyes.

Crying over Sad Movies - It's the very Me



A Moment to Remember (November 2004)

 Just finished watching a Korean classic Movie A Moment to Remember. And after I've watched it, my tears just keep pouring down. Really really love the movie. It's about a broken-hearted girl who had found real love in the most unexpected place. The sad part is, though theirs was a perfect love, it was still not perfect for fate played tricks on them. The girl acquired Alzheimer's desease in the later part of the movie. huhuhu just when everything seemed to be perfect... too bad there "was an eraser in her head".

I really love watching love stories with bittersweet ending. I still remember when I and my honey watched The Time Travellers Wife. The movie had just started but I was already crying inside the movie house. hehehe He told me to hold my tears coz people might wonder what he did to make me cry like that.

A Walk to Remember, The Notebook, A.I (Artificial Intelligence), Bi-Centennial Man, and Armageddon are just some of the tear-jerkers that succeeded in bringing out the cry baby in me.

well, that's life. You really can't have it all. But they're just movies. Real life has full of happy endings. :)

Just a thought - 2/26/2011

Today, I have pent up emotions, mixed thoughts, feelings which can't be explained. Maybe, the coffee is getting into my nerves. Caffeine did it to me i guess. I can't really express this feeling of melancholy, the depression that is putting weight on me, the feeling of sadness... of why, i can't put reason to. I want to cry, I want to shout, I want to unleash this feeling of loneliness so that I could be free of it.  I always have this unexplainable feeling that creeps inside me, down to the cores of my being. Is this some sort of an illness? Madness? Im normal I guess, but sometimes, I feel that I am not.

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